WHEN I AM GONE

what if i wasn't there anymore? would you care like you once did before? you would swear to always be there, anytime or anywhere i needed you, it's not fair, because that's not what you would do, if i wanted to, bare, my heart and soul, if i was ever sad and blue. if you only knew, that what you do, affects me, it would suspect me to believe you have dissapeared from my life. i don't want to object you, but you don't see, what reflects me, and how much i wish we could go back to the way it used to be, back in the day, when there was so much to say, and we had the time to stay, and listen to each other, you were like a sister or a brother to me, you were like part of the family, and it seemed that we'd be each other's shoulder 'til the end.. i thought that's how friends, were, or maybe i didn't comprehend, that eventually, you and me, wouldn't be able to spend our time together anymore. so now i can, understand, you can't be there, with your helping hand, or you won't be there, to catch my fall, sometimes, or maybe at all. or i might not be able to call with a problem, like i used to, so we could solve'em as a team, or so it seemed back then.. back when i could go to you and you would show me what to do... yes, yes, all that i understand, but i want you to know how it feels to be me, i want you to see, how it feels to be so lonely, to not be part of a team, to not have our special bond, to have no one to have no one to lean, on, i want you to know how it'll feel like, when i am gone.

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