UNTITLED (WHAT IT FEELS TO LOVE AGAIN)

You've felt this way before, but swear you haven't. You feel like heaven's knock-knocked on your door and now you feel like you could never not be content.. because you're in Love. (And whether it be again or not, it doesn't seem to cross your mind. You've only been thinking about him a lot, and that's been taking up all your time). You sense that he might hurt you -- just as anyone else might do -- but there's something about him that makes you feel safe, unlike anyone else could. You feel you should be wary, but his presence shines above the rest. It's like you no longer should be worried, because sweetheart, it looks like you've found the best out of the best.

He nicknames you 'baby' and says it softly as to not seem like he owns you, but he does, he does.. and you don't even have to let him know it. (It somehow shows by you calling him, 'baby', too). From chocolate to watches, he gives you everything you wanted and everything you never knew you could have, in a better half. He once said that if he could, be anybody else, he would, only be him, because nobody else has got it so good, being with someone like you.

He'd like to sleep next to your pretty face, dream about it, and then wake with it again next to his, always ending and beginning his days with your sweet kiss. But since you never sleep over, you kiss him goodbye on the edge of his shoulder as you get up from under the sheets. You tell him goodnight and that you'll creep back in the morning to at least keep some of the dream half true.

You bring him breakfast in bed, but still worry he won't like what you brought (although he loves almost everything you bring whether it's breakfast or not). And you lie with him after, until your tummies settle -- gazing or not gazing into each other eyes -- just being there with him, in such a simple way, always feels incredible.. and ever so comfortable, in a way you feel your relationship will always be, something a couple usually takes long to achieve. But because you have it, you'll never want to leave, and neither will he.

Most of the time, your love goes unspoken, unsaid, subtle, something that could never be broken. And it's beautiful, wonderful, completely 'full'-filling. And so much more than I ever imagined it could be.

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