THE STRIFE OF LIFE BETWEEN THE BEST OF FRIENDS

i just want to dissappear from your life. i want you to feel the strife of what it's like for me to not be here for you. i don't want you to take advantage of me like you do. just because i'm there, and you know it too. and the sad thing is that i won't get mad or feel bad about how you treat me and you just dismiss me when you don't need me in your life anymore. how you just ignore me from being in your presence, just coming to me whenever you want to pour your heart out because it's so sore from whatever you got hurt from. and i was always there because i swore i would be 'til the end, because we were once.. the best of friends, a bond that fell apart so easily between you and me, actually, i think it may have just faded, that friendship we once created. i feel so jaded when i think of what happened with us. if i traded lives with you, maybe i'd understand why you do the things that you do that make me feel so blue and maybe i'd understand why you don't even notice how selfish you are when you do the things you do. i lost my wings so many times and after everything i've done for you, you don't do a thing. you're supposed to pick me up whenever i trip or fall, or even if i slip a little off the edge, you're supposed to be my courage to bring me up again. that's why i cry because i think about how i hate it so much whenever i tend to run back to you, wishing so much that you would extend your arms out to me, pretend that we were still the best of friends as we always were.. i guess i thought forever never had an end. and you know how i can't even defend myself when you tell me the wrong i do. for a long time, i've tried to be so strong to get away, but i had nowhere else to go, so i had to stay. i wish just one day i could finally say that i don't need you in my life.. because i'm so tired, i'm just so tired of all this strife.

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