THE ONLY WAY I'D VERBALIZE THIS TO YOU

i bet you didn't know that i sometimes like to fantasize about you, romanticizing the idea of you and me as a couple.. even though you're only a friend, i sometimes like to pretend, you're not and i sometimes agonize over the thought, of you finding someone else other than me.. because secretly, you make me, melt.. and i've honestly never felt, this way before. you make me all giddy like a kiddy with a new toy, and that for me, would be you, boy. a nice play on the eyes, with a silly sweet-looking smile, time with you was always worthwhile. but still, i sit here and stay in denial because i couldn't dare to change the way that we care about each other now -- only as friends and that's how, we'll always be, i can't imagine "us" ever being a "we", no matter how i'm feeling, when i'm you.. and you'll never have a clue nor will i ever think to pursue more of a something, between, us and you'll never know that all this time, on you, i've secretly had this crush.

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