BROKEN WORDS I TORE APART

i cry sometimes
unsure of what i mean to you
knowing that years
don't make up for anything
knowing that smiles don't justify
the silence, of our hearts
i live in limbo
hoping there's more than i see
hoping there's more of me
inside of you,
more than you'd like there to be
because this dependency,
hurts,
with it always seeming like
it's a one-sided, deep and private,
emotion at hand, on sleeve
breaking apart each time you breathe
please, please
define it, and give me some words
that let me know there's a purpose,
that there's a reason,
that you only wish to speak the words
(oh my god i can't live without you)
of why i should still be here,
attempting to stand strong,
with the shadow of you
by my side.

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