AS MY FRIEND

You created a world without me
A world without this girl
A world that's not absurd,
but wondrous for you, I'm sure
That there's no way to describe it in words


You made this world with thoughts of him
With your mind so brimmed,
So much, you're still caught in a total whirlwind
And it's you two ALONE still spinning
With love, and how it seems to ever last
But for you two, it had made you forget the past
In your eyes, you didn't realize what you were leaving..
In my eyes, I thought it seemed deceiving..


I know you didn't mean it that way
I tried to tell myself that day to day
But still .. it's not the same
Without you telling me yourself.


I still think of you from time to time
How could I not?
You were a real close friend of mine
But ultimately I think love turned you blind
From your friends who were true to you before
But now it's not about that anymore
Sometimes I ask myself
"What am I here for?"


I don't want you to think that I'm not happy for you
I just wish you would think of me too
In this midst of all the excitedness you feel
(When you're with him..)
But I thought we had a true friendship
I thought it was real


I just wanted to say I missed you
Even though you heard it before
But I'm not sure if it got through to your head
So I decided to say it again.


I miss you as my friend.

021801